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An angel has passed from this world.  My angel man my Gabriel was hit by a car yesterday.  He go out during the tropical storm while I was gone from my home.  I have no idea how the door was opened.  He tried to head back to the only place he knew was home.  He tried to cross Dean road, a 4 lane highway in heavy rains and at night.  The driver that hit him had no way of seeing him in the road.  He was picked up by animal control and they attempted to help him.  They couldn't so they rushed him to an emergency clinic.  He died in route.  He died with out knowing how much his mom loved him and was worried about him.  With out knowing that I was desperately searching for him.  My angel has gone to be with my other lost friends. I am left behind to mourn him.  I am going to try and write a eulogy for him.  But how do you do that for the perfect dog?  

Gabriel was as loyal as they come. He may have been afraid of strangers, but if I was in trouble he was there to defend me with everything he had.  HE had a curious nature.  HE loved to explore and learn about new things.  HE enjoyed catching goofers in our back yard.  He loved to play fetch with a stick in the back yeard.  HE became friends with our cat Merlin who is now wondering where his dog is.  He loved to do his tricks for people.  Especially bow. Because he knew that was my favorite.  He loved his good night cookies.  HE loved them so much that when he heard me say good night to my friends in vent he would get up and bounce knowing it was time for bed and he would get a cookie.  HE taught Merlin what bed time was.  THat it was really treat time before sleep.  And so Merlin started demanding treats for bed too.  He and Merlin would work as a team to get stuff off of counters to eat and share.  Gabriel would defend his cat in the back yard from alll commers.  He loved to chase the squirls in the trees and catch rain drops as they fell.  He would come running if you called his name.  Tail wagging and joy lighting up his quizical face.  I will always remember his one ear up one ear down expression.  His love for life and family.  His joy at discovering the new world of the beach and swimming in the ocean.  The tender kisses he would offer on my hands.  The overflowing love he bestowed on all who got to know him.  I will miss his fur in my clothes and towels.  His toenails clicking on the tile.  His joyful bark when the doorbell rang.  The patients he had with the kids that tried to play with him.  His soft brown eyes that let you know exactly what he was feeling.  The tail that wagged with joy whenever we came home from anywhere.  The excited bounce when we came to let him back in the house.  HE was more than my dog. More than my pet.  HE was my family and my child.  And now he is gone.  Never to be replaced.  Forever to be missed and loved.  HE was my angel on earth.  My comfort, my solace, my little man forever.  Dear God, please hold him for me.  Comfort him and show him a beach to play on till I can see him again.  I hope he remembers how much I love him and how my life is just not complete with out him in it.  I am falling apart.  I wish I wasn't alone.  I wish I had arms around me holding me tight.  I am going to spread his ashes in my parents back yeard.  It was a place he loved. He didn't know our new place.  It wasn't his yet.  And I can't spread him where I lived before.  HE deserves to be with Family.