Welcome to the ocean of my mind.

Dead

2008-08-21T05:41:13Z

An angel has passed from this world. My angel man my Gabriel was hit by a car yesterday. He go out during the tropical storm while I was gone from my home. I have no idea how the door was opened. He tried to head back to the only place he knew was home. He tried to cross Dean road, a 4 lane highway in heavy rains and at night. The driver that hit him had no way of seeing him in the road. He was picked up by animal control and they attempted to help him. They couldn't so they rushed him to an emergency clinic. He died in route. He died with out knowing how much his mom loved him and was worried about him. With out knowing that I was desperately searching for him. My angel has gone to be with my other lost friends. I am left behind to mourn him. I am going to try and write a eulogy for him. But how do you do that for the perfect dog?

Gabriel was as loyal as they come. He may have been afraid of strangers, but if I was in trouble he was there to defend me with everything he had. HE had a curious nature. HE loved to explore and learn about new things. HE enjoyed catching goofers in our back yard. He loved to play fetch with a stick in the back yeard. HE became friends with our cat Merlin who is now wondering where his dog is. He loved to do his tricks for people. Especially bow. Because he knew that was my favorite. He loved his good night cookies. HE loved them so much that when he heard me say good night to my friends in vent he would get up and bounce knowing it was time for bed and he would get a cookie. HE taught Merlin what bed time was. THat it was really treat time before sleep. And so Merlin started demanding treats for bed too. He and Merlin would work as a team to get stuff off of counters to eat and share. Gabriel would defend his cat in the back yard from alll commers. He loved to chase the squirls in the trees and catch rain drops as they fell. He would come running if you called his name. Tail wagging and joy lighting up his quizical face. I will always remember his one ear up one ear down expression. His love for life and family. His joy at discovering the new world of the beach and swimming in the ocean. The tender kisses he would offer on my hands. The overflowing love he bestowed on all who got to know him. I will miss his fur in my clothes and towels. His toenails clicking on the tile. His joyful bark when the doorbell rang. The patients he had with the kids that tried to play with him. His soft brown eyes that let you know exactly what he was feeling. The tail that wagged with joy whenever we came home from anywhere. The excited bounce when we came to let him back in the house. HE was more than my dog. More than my pet. HE was my family and my child. And now he is gone. Never to be replaced. Forever to be missed and loved. HE was my angel on earth. My comfort, my solace, my little man forever. Dear God, please hold him for me. Comfort him and show him a beach to play on till I can see him again. I hope he remembers how much I love him and how my life is just not complete with out him in it. I am falling apart. I wish I wasn't alone. I wish I had arms around me holding me tight. I am going to spread his ashes in my parents back yeard. It was a place he loved. He didn't know our new place. It wasn't his yet. And I can't spread him where I lived before. HE deserves to be with Family.

Funny to me.

2008-07-22T18:28:13Z

TEN THINGS YOU SHOULD NEVER SAY TO YOUR MASTER
10. Great leather outfit Sir, did your mother knit it for you?

9. Good lord Sir where on earth did you do your training… at the
school for the deaf and blind?

8. Not now Sir…Criminal Minds is on….

7. Put your arm into Daddy…Jeez… my Gram hits harder than that

6. Sorry Sir…night out with the girls…gotta run… I left the pizza
number on the counter for you

5. Laughter…at any request…

4. Petitioning neighbors and friends for a role reversing Sadie
Hawkins day then detailing for Daddy just what you'd plan on doing
to him…. (Seriously not a good idea...lol…)

3. Suggesting in a moment of anger that perhaps HE should bend
over….

2. Taping a picture of him and his mother to his favorite paddle so
they can both kiss your butt…

1. Joking to him that even though you can't seem to cum on command
yet for him that it seems easy enough with the plumber….. (Apparently
not funny)

done

2008-07-16T17:24:55Z

I am just going to rent something. I can't deal with this anymore. I am going to get us into a house for rent that is a 3/2 and will work just fine till we can find something. That way I have a place to live while I hunt for a house to own. Brad thinks that the market still hasn't hit bottom anyway. And I trust him on that. So rent and then hunt. I can always break a lease if I have to. Heck it will give us more time to save money and have more for the home. So, I give up. I am going to go look at this house for rent Tuesday and then sign a lease as long as it has a dishwasher. I have to get rid of the stress of not knowing where I will live in a month. My gastritus is flairing up badly and causing me to lose work. Time for it to end. I hate taking medicine every 4 hours. I hate taking medicine at all. But throwing up is worse soooo, medicine it is.

questions?

2008-06-27T03:37:15Z

Stolen from Bere

Current Music: American Girl by Tom Petty

1. Do you like blue cheese? No
2. Have you ever smoked? half a cigarette when doing high school drama. Icky
4. What flavor Kool Aid was your favorite? Cherry
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? no
7. Favorite Christmas movie? The Grinch animated version
8. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? Water
9. Can you do push ups? one kind of
10) Favorite piece of jewelry? my dangling ear cuffs but I don't wear them often
11. Favorite hobby? SCA
12. Do you have A.D.D.? no
13. What's one trait you hate about yourself? That I doubt myself too much.
14. Middle name? Lynn
15. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment?
(1) I want to understand
(2) I want to play
(3) Bed time
18. Current hate right now? Being confused
20. How did you bring in the New Year? Sitting at home with Lloyd
21. Where would you like to go? Austrailia
22. Name three people who will complete this? lol I stole this from Bere who stole it from Tara.
23. Do you own slippers? several pair
24. What shirt are you wearing? sleeveless cowel neck
25. Do you like sleeping on satin sheets? No they slide around to much and are hard to stay on.
26. Can you whistle? Yes
27. If you could talk to anyone right now, who would it be? My Grandmother
28. Would you be a pirate? No
29. What songs do you sing in the shower? I don't
30. Favorite girl's name? For a child? Lita
31. Favorite boy's name? For a child? Josh
32. What's in your pocket right now? nothing
33. Last thing that made you laugh? My Dad telling me about a mentalist he saw last night.
34. Best bed sheets as a child? don't remember
35. Worst injury you've ever had? 7 Staples in my scalp from falling off a horse.
36. Do you love where you live? Yes
37. How many TVs do you have in your house? 2
38. Who is your loudest friend? Tommy
39. How many dogs do you have? Gabriel
40. Does someone have a crush on you? Yeah right
41. What is your favorite book(s)? Kerowyns Tale By Mercadies Lackey
42. What is your favorite candy? Gummy peaches
43. Favorite Sports Team? Atlanta Braves??

44. What song do you want played at your funeral? No idea. I haven't thought that far ahead.

Candles

2008-06-19T02:37:50Z

Went to try and do candle research today at the Ringling museum. Very frustrating. Found several pictures of Candle holders that have a large spike in the middle to hold a candle. But no proof of a candle mold in period. The spikes were way too big for a taper candle though. I am hoping one of the books I looked in will lead me to where I need to go. Grrrrr. I just want to find what I need. On the up side though it was a very nice day. I really enjoyed hanging out with Samantha, Cindi and Cathrine. We had fun just being around each other all day. We talked and just had a ton of fun. It was nice to be around people with similar interests again. To just talk with no worries or frustrations other than the ones we wanted. They all found helpful stuff which is good. I wish I had time to have eaten dinner with them but that was just not to be. It would have been nice though. But hey life goes on.

NO!

2008-05-27T17:59:09Z

They canceled Moonlight! I am so ticked off! It was a good show. Had lots of room for growth! And they canceled it because 13% of the people watching Ghostwhisperer, didn't stay to watch Moonlight! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
Another great show gone.

I liked this

2008-05-21T20:06:56Z

If I were a cat, I would be a… Puma!

The Puma (Felis concolor) is an unmarked, tawny cat which possesses, along with great elegance and agility, many commonly used names. The most widespread of its labels are Cougar, Panther, Mountain Lion, and Catamount. They live over a broad range in all of the Americas.

Being the Puma (or whatever you want to call it!), you are a very strong individual and have a great capability of succeeding at whatever you wish to accomplish. You are cunning when in sticky situations and adept at puzzles and riddles.

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buying a home

2008-05-20T20:00:21Z

Wow, we just got back from the loan consultant. We have more options than we thought. Buying a home may be easier than we believed. It is exciting and scary all at the same time. We are more stable than we thought we were. This is exciting. I am going to be buying a house! I just hope we can find one we like soon!